I Am Someone to Him

Many times I have felt like I am not enough. When I was a little girl, I was often too shy to share what I had to say, too afraid of what others would think. I didn't like fighting. I didn't like yelling. I didn't like making a scene (...unless the grocery store didn't have my cereal then I LOST it. Right, Dad?) I liked playing outside, by myself, on my bike or high up in a tree, swaying in the branches as the wind blew. Somewhere quiet and solitary. When I was with friends, I wanted to keep the peace. It was difficult accepting no matter how hard I tried, sometimes I'd fall short of other's expectations and my own standards. It was to my solitary fortresses I'd go when I'd mess up. It's where I go now.

I'm still learning and forgiving. I am a Daughter of God. I am someone the Savior suffered for. I am someone He cared for. I am someone to Him. Even in my solitary moments. Even when I can't keep the peace. Even if I'm too shy to say what I need to say or afraid of what others will think. I am someone to Him.

Here's To Tonight

Oh, Luka. You are perfect.

I, however, am not. Excuse me for my lack of commitment to you, blog (and those who read it). BUT last week was an amazing workout week and this week I've made some major strides with my eating habits (FINALLY). I also recently got a new full time job three weeks ago with Property Solutions and am having a blast. Some days are difficult (like today...I had to leave work early because I had the ugliest migraine of all time and needed sleep. I slept for five hours when I got home and took medicine and felt much better). Who knew how demanding a full time job would be and how emotionally/physically draining? My body is slowly adapting to the new schedule (7am-3pm most days and 8am-4pm on Fridays and Saturdays). Tomorrow is my day off and I look forward to getting laundry done, going to BYU's surplus sale, and making a yummy creamy tomato and spinach pasta. Zac will also take tomorrow off from studying (FINALS WEEK MIGHT KILL HIM, GUYS) and we will finally spend more than 20 minutes together in one sitting. (: Mega excited over here. Don't mind me.

Tonight, for instance, we will eat cookies, watch The Hunt with Mads Mikkelson, and actually have a proper date. !!! I don't want tonight to end.

	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday
W E I G H T S	1 Mile Warm Up :45 Plank 10 Push-Ups Stretch Out Kettle Bell Squats (25) Shoulder Weight (15) Deadlifts (80) Dumbell Bench Press (15) Rows (50) Inner Thigh (75) Outer Thigh (105) Abs (30 reps) :45 Plank 10 Push-Ups Stretch Out 1 Mile Cool Down	X	1 Mile Warm Up :60 Plank 10 Push-Ups Stretch Out Squats (125) Kettle Bell Squats (25) Deadlifts (80) Dumbell Bench Press (15) Rows (50) Inner Thigh (75) Outer Thigh (105) Abs (30 reps) :60 Plank 10 Push-Ups Stretch Out	X	X
C A R D I O	X	3.7 Miles Outside	X	3 Miles and Hills (6x)	1 Mile Warm Up 2 Mile Fartlek on Track -Stadium Stairs/Lap -20 Squat Jumps /Lap -10 Push Ups/Lap 1 Mile Cool Down
M E A L S	Breakfast: Banana and Lemon Zinger Tea Lunch: PBJ Sandwich, chips, and carrots Dinner: Noodles & Co.	Breakfast: Banana and Lemon Zinger Tea Lunch: PBJ Sandwich, chips, and carrots Dinner: ---	Breakfast: Banana and Lemon Zinger Tea Lunch: Dinner: Grilled Chicken and Spinach Cucumber Salad	Breakfast: Banana and Chamomile Tea w/ Honey Lunch: Donuts, apple, chips, carrots and spinach Dinner: Panda Express	Breakfast: Cocoa Dynobites Lunch: Ham and Mustard sandwich, carrots, spinach, and apple Dinner: McDonald’s