This, That, and the Other :)

So lately I've been finding myself pondering the past. I'm in an awkward "waiting phase" for events to come in the future. I guess because I'm in such a peculiar position (foreign state, no friends here, and no job) I am just occupying my free time with contemplation. Just thinking about decisions made, consequences of those decisions, and where I am now. Thinking about people who've touched my life and made me the person I am today. And I guess I find it so refreshing to just think for a change. I was complaining to Zac last night that I am getting frustrated with my life right now. I told him, "It feels like I'm getting nowhere." "Do you feel like you need to be somewhere right now?"
His question stopped me. There's a purpose for this waiting and quiet time. I know it. I just need to embrace and live it for all its worth. Hopefully I'll figure things out and all will be hunky dory. But until then, I think I am just learning to love patience. :)
Zac and I decided it would be better if I didn't get a job because we're moving back to Utah in mid-July. And I'm going to be gone from Arizona for about a good solid month. (2 weeks gone for visits to Kansas and California and then 2 weeks gone for the wedding and honeymoon). Therefore, we just decided it would be easier on the both of us if we can move into our apartment and find work together in Utah before school starts. :)
I am going to be in Kansas in about a week! I can't wait to connect with old friends and see my brother graduate high school. :) So pumped! Then as soon as my five or so days in Kansas are over, I'm flying out to California to see Zac! I haven't seen him since February. LIKE FOR REAL. Freaking February. But being with him for a week will be wonderful. I've been informed that much will be going on: Sky High (which is an awesome tumbling gym), free movies at the theatre (Zac works there!), and plenty of down time with his family to get the rest of the wedding and reception planned. :D Then I get to come back to Arizona to be with my family right before gettin' hitched. hahaha
Mom is such a strong and awesome woman. She's keeping me busy amongst my meditation as I mentioned earlier. She's given me errands,which I leap at instantaneously; let's me use the jeep for said errands and, oh, how I've missed driving; she wakes me up to go run in the cool Arizona weather. All in all, she's helping me move forward instead of falling flat on my face. I'm finding ways to perform service for others and it feels really good. I love talking with my sisters about their days at school and I love giggling with my mom while watching That 70s Show and The Colbert Report. Connecting with my stepdad is difficult for he's always working or sleeping. But the times that I do just get to talk with him are cherished. Even just being able to hold our kitties and walk our dog is awesome. I love how animals just melt at your touch and immediately want to cuddle or get super excited when you pay them the slightest attention. One cat in particular has been following me around the house with his tail straight up in the air ever since I came home. :) And that is so endearing! hehehe
Well I do believe it's time for me to drive my sisters to activities for church and stuff. :) I guess I'll just leave you with a few things...