The Ladybug Audition

Today did not start out as "good." I woke up extremely emotionally exhausted (so many "E's!") and did not want to face the day. Two nights ago, I went to my first two auditions in about 8 months. The first one was pretty rocky but I had hope for a callback. I was pretty confident I rocked the socks off the directors during my second audition. Last night I received an email informing me I didn't make callbacks for the first audition. I was pretty mad at myself because I knew the exact reason why I didn't make it. But Zac reassured me that I was just getting back on the horse. I still have time. Time slipped away from me and I tossed all night long.
Then came my 6:30 alarm this morning. Groggily, I fumbled out of bed, got ready slowly, and stumbled to my Beginning Stage Combat class. It felt like I was swimming through class, not really here nor there. The only thought on my mind was the second audition and callbacks.
No email came saying "Yay" or "Nay" to me making it.
No sign was posted in the HFAC saying who made callbacks and who didn't.
I was going crazy and poor Zac. He put up with all of my spewing anger and confusion. I knew callbacks for the second play were from 3 to 5 but had no idea where they were taking place. Eventually, I decided to just let it go. And as soon as that happened, a woman and her college-aged daughter asked for our help.
"Is this the HFAC?"
"Yes it is! Do you need help?"
"We're trying to find room 400."
"Hmm. That will be on the fourth floor. I can lead you there, if you want."
"Oh, would you! Thank you so much!"
And so we marched to the room. On the way, I was surprised at how readily I asked questions about these strangers and totally forgot about my "horrible-no-good-very-bad day." We found their room and Zac and I left the HFAC.
Another audition had started just moments before these strangers asked for our help. Zac and I walked to the MOA's garden and found it already underway. I decided to go for it. Zac waited patiently for me on a bench as I cold read with the directors and another girl. I have no idea what will happen with that show, but let me tell you: It's not the end of the world whether I make it or not.

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A LADYBUG LANDED ON MY NOSE TODAY AND STAYED THERE FOR FIVE MINUTES. NO JOKE. I was walking to my last class of the day and ran into a guy from my Beginning Contemporary Dance class from last semester. We chatted about dance and then I awkwardly asked if he got engaged to the girl he was dating in class. He said they talked about it but no, they are just friends now. I then told him that the night I went to pick up my wedding dress, I saw her trying one on! He laughed and I felt like a silly girl. And just then, a ladybug flew in between us and landed right on my nose! We counted the dots and the ladybug only had two. He dared me to keep the ladybug on my face while in class and I said my nose was starting to feel tingly. Then we laughed and I headed on my merry way. :) The ladybug did stay on while I walked through the hallways to my last class. Many heads turned. My nose tingled.
And I suddenly knew everything was gonna be alright.
No matter what happened: No callbacks or Yes callbacks.

Funny how a little ladybug can remind you of how small you really are. :)