A Post About Being Married and Acting :)

Here's an early good morning to you!
There's nothing like taking a hot shower the morning after a long day that went really really well. :)
I finally found my character for the show I'm in, "Hedda Gabler."
It's taken me a while-and I'm not quite sure why-but I know I did some deep soul searching and figured some stuff out. Anne Shakespeare, the head artistic director of Utah Shakespeare in the Park, was my first TA in an acting class here at BYU and she pushed me farther than I ever thought possible. She came to a rehearsal last Thursday night and I hadn't seen her since that first acting class (2+ years). Yeah.
She watched me perform.
And talked with me for 2 hours after rehearsal.
Let's just say my performance wasn't awesome. :( I was drowning in confusion and doubt.
Anne laid her wisdom on me:

The reason why I was hitting brick walls with my acting is because I'm married.
That might sound awful, but keep in mind, besides my role in "The Stronger" (where I portrayed a married woman) this is my first role since getting married.
It does something to you, to your acting. Being married, I mean.
Once you become intimate with someone in such a sacred and personal way (like with a husband) you give half of yourself to him. It's like you are one in flesh.
I was confused with my acting because I'm not who I was when I was single. I'm just not. My priorities have changed. Husband=Number One.

But guess what?
Anne had me check out a book called, "Fascinating Womanhood." And I'm finding my femininity again-what makes being a woman so amazing. I've read a couple of chapters now and I applied what I've learned so far all day yesterday and amped it up when I first went onstage last night for rehearsal.

And I found my character!
My old confidence when I'd walk onstage was on fire.
My old sassiness when I'd nail my lines surged through me.
My old "stick it to the man" when I pursued an objective kept me motivated.

Just wanted to tell you the good news.
:)