Let's get lost together. :)

I just really love this picture. ><

Earlier tonight my roommate, Amber Corry, yelled my name and gave me a hug. Wonderful. :). Coheed and Cambria is amazing, by the way. Currently listening to "Welcome Home." Man, so good.


Today, I've been running on four hours of sleep. I went to bed at 3 am and woke up at 6:46 am to take a shower and get ready for the day. Then I knelt in prayer. I haven't done that in a while. Heavenly Father can ever so tenderly take down my walls of bitterness and anger. "When life is too much to stand, kneel." :)


I went to my 8 am Jogging class and turned in homework and took notes for the final exam we can take during the month of March.


Then I had my Beginning Stage Makeup class from 9 am to 11 am. We practiced wound makeup and I think I did really well for a practice day. But I need to make the bruise underneath my eye less harsh and more realistic. I think next time I'm gonna bust my lip open. Pictures to come. :)


From 11 am to 12 pm, I was in my Shakespeare class. We discussed 12th Night. I LOVE THIS PLAY. Dude so good. I love analyzing all the characters, but understanding Viola is completely amazing. She dresses up as a boy in order to be "free," but through that decision, she creates chaos. Keep in mind, though, that she isn't a victim to the illusions the other characters suffer from who live in Illyria. In fact, Viola and her twin brother, Sebastian, are the only characters in the play who aren't from Illyria. SUCH A GOOD PLAY.


At 12 pm to 1 pm I was in my Phonetics class watching a group of classmates perform a Dr. Suess narrative called "The Sneetches" in Standard American Stage dialect. THEY WERE SO AMAZING to watch. Like I was laughing the entire time. I love my school. :)


And, finally, I went to my last class of the day from 1 pm to 2 pm, Creative Writing. I am falling in love with writing all over again. The simple love I have for writing is so consuming. I get to create beautiful, ugly, truthful, and deceitful portrayals based on the craftiness of word choice. The atmosphere of my classroom is so encouraging. Honestly, if the members of the class weren't as friendly and kind and honest as they are, I wouldn't feel comfortable at all sharing my work. Of course, I have yet to do so. My short story will be read on Friday. I AM SO NERVOUS. I don't normally enjoy people reading my work. Only when I am completely sure of myself do I feel safe in letting others read my work. I already know that my short story isn't where I want it to be. 


I wrote it all day yesterday and when I finished, I didn't feel completely satisfied. I wonder if we will often go through that. We finish a project and don’t necessarily feel complete afterwards. I know that I've felt that way many times. But much more enjoyable, I think, is when we know we gave it our all and we are completely exhausted after finishing our task. We know that our bodies are proud of us. We are allowed to be proud of our accomplishments.

There have only been select moments in my life when I’ve felt this way-exhausted to the core by my hard work and knowing that I deserved success. My first audition to get in the Acting program; my performance in “Cough/Laugh” last semester; my last performance of “The Importance of Being Earnest”; My Book of Mormon project last semester; and others. 

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I miss driving fast. I miss pressing my foot down on the accelerator. I miss screaming while speeding down a highway on a Kansas summer night. I use the term "speeding" loosely. :)

Driving is such a sweet release. You can go as fast as you want or as slow as you want. You can pass as many people on the road as you want or you can choose to stay behind them and enjoy the scenery. You can drive in silence. You can drive listening to music at ear-shattering decibels. You can listen to the alluring rhythm of the windshield wipers slap either side of the window. You can hear the rain pound above you on the roof of the car and be swept away in the storm. (Metaphorically, hopefully. ><). You can roll down the windows and bring in the sunshine. You can lose your breath with the sweetness of the air as it zooms past.

I really love driving.